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Over dinner yest, i was just briefly talkin bout my bro’s r/s..

This morn, i realised de r/s has came to a stop..

Suddenly, it feels as if im some curse to him………………………….

Love finds u when u least expect it to.. .. den does it also leaves u when u least expect it to?

hmm..

moments like this..

Its de company tat truly matters.

The surroundings just act as a supplement.

Nice dinner + Great company = Happy Friday! (sounds like a package huh) =p

Goodbye to August, Hello to September.

with less expectations, come less disappointments?

On board de bus today, there was a small boy who fell from de stairs, bout 4 steps down to ground level. He landed with a loud “thump”, giving most of de passengers a big shock.

I looked at him, somehow feeling painful for him. It must have hurt quite bad… *ouch* He looked as if he was bout to cry, but he didnt..

Do we tend to appear stronger (than wad we reali are) in front of others?

Holding the Tears

Its amazing weird how those words can affect me emotionally.. and even more strange tat as i continue readin, i teared… :/ It seems like i can put myself in de “picture” and realise, there goes a lost chance.. was i too sensitive to de words?

 

When will it stop raining? Could de rain be a symbol of tears?

Is life bout trusting your feelings and taking chances? Losing and den finding happiness?

Appreciating the memories, learning from the past, and realizing people do change?

After 14 months, do i still know how it feels wen emotionally attracted?

 

My heart skip when i saw him.

My heart beats unknowingly fast.

My hands start feeling cold, and soon cold sweat.

My hands keep fidgeting.

He is almost always on my mind.

I stared at my hp, wondering wad’s de best words to xpress.. but my mind wen blank.

 

Is there a right time/ place?

Does he feel de same way like i do?

Could it be just a one-way route again?

Do i hav de minimal courage to let him know?

Will i look/ appear like a silly fool ?

Perhaps im not good enough for him?

 

Behind all this lies de simple truth…. i fear rejection and hav lost faith on de way..

If only i was an angel… I wld keep u in my prayers & choose to watch over u…

For some reason i dunno; its a feeling, undescribable.

Many pple i’ve smiled at (for de sake of appearing happy); but wen I first saw you, my heart took over & smiled, from de heart…

 

Perhaps i should just keep it de way it is now.. seeing de other happy, even from a distance?

Time to schedule for my next checkup; medication does not seem to work anymore. Why does it still feels so pain? Irritates me :/

:)

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“The Lord is close to the broken-hearted: He rescues those who are crushed in spirit”

*stress*

wonder if i’ll be able to hit de quarter’s target…. ahh~~ :/

*very stress*

Had a bad gastric pain. i wish.. i cld fly home…!

A day rest for me tmr..! *smiles*

Hope i wont turn out too unglam for tmr’s appt… =p

A good sleep should suffice for now.

Nite nite~~ ;p

Dream oh dream..

i had a dream. a strange one. i dreamt of someone i nvr met before .. =/ perhaps i was only half asleep?

woke up this morning feeling as if i didnt sleep at all =( Heard this song on 933 this morning before leaving home.

It was this lyrics “我能想到最浪漫的事就是和你一起慢慢变老” tat made me when to search for this song online. does it sound like one of de oldies? heh =p 

i tink i wouldnt mind singing this to Mr Right with my cannot-make-it voice, even if it means embarassing myself. Its sucha…. lo-man-tic song =p *melts*

最浪漫的事 - 赵咏华

*背靠着背坐在地毯上
听听音乐聊聊愿望
你希望我越来越温柔
我希望你放我在心上
你说想送我个浪漫的梦想
谢谢我带你找到天堂
哪怕用一辈子才能完成
只要我讲你就记住不忘

我能想到最浪漫的事
就是和你一起慢慢变老
一路上收藏点点滴滴的欢笑
留到以后坐着摇椅慢慢聊

我能想到最浪漫的事
就是和你一起慢慢变老
直到我们老的哪儿也去不了
你还依然把我当成手心里的宝

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Long long day for me tmr… always dread Tuesday meeting, argggg

Chirpy~

Hmm.. weekend was gr8, other than de non-stop rain over de 2 days =/

A one-of-a-kind dress (those tat its actually a shorts at de bottom) spotted my attention.. itchy hands, when to try it on. and i kinda like it =p

esp de “ruffles” at de top…. couldnt resist “snapping” *gee* cos its too exp to buy..! *aww 100 bucks* =(

My “neighbour” at work gave me this name: “big head”… how “nice” of him! =/

       

more outbreak recently….. sigh. *cries*

Aside from de terrible outbreak…. this advert is for a good cause, spread it on

Get this limited edition “30-hour famine” t-shirt (S$22.90) and/or exclusive “Shelter a Needy Child” umbrella (S$16) and you will be helping vulnerable children break out of poverty. A simple action from you will mean a lot to them [T-shirt comes in black and white]

  

Have a fab week ahead! ;p

The Tiff

Had an argument on Friday nite with my bro :/ Seemingly small issue, but de fact that the “lie” was alr being said n done, i shouted at him.. and shut closed doors. The heart felt really sore, no doubt, but wads done is done

Read his blog de next day. It was a simple sentence “i just feel like crying now”.

i stared at it for a few seconds, trying to understand how he was feeling. He’s embarking on a new journey.. to school. Adapting to a new envt, finding new (trustworthy) friends, coping with exams + projects.. (and de list nvr ends).

Boy, take things slow. Ups and downs in life are meant to be. With failures, we learn. Most imptly, enjoy the process. We will grow to be a stronger individual. Wif our own different commitments, the amt of time we spent tgt might reduce, but you know de love remains. No matter wad happens, you still have a family who loves you dearly. And you’re definitely not forgotten..

Shared by a church friend:

[Roses have thorns, people do change, and friendships come and go. Seek happiness alone and have some "me" time. Love yourself and thru that, you can truly love others. Forgive, not for the person, but for your own goodself. Allow God to carry your burdens, sometimes its jus too heavy to carry them all by yourself. Look within, and discover your passion, your soul.. it makes one stronger ]

Food :p

Our team dinner was changed, and became a lunch today instead.. kinda impromtu cos boss will be going for 2 wks block leave, and big big boss “visited” us out of de blue so he tag along too =/ din reali had much of an appetite tho – stomach felt kinda “disturbed”.

Every yr, each staff will be entitled a sum of $$ for the purpose of team bonding. We can use it in any way, as long as de whole team agrees to it. Other teams made used of the $$ to go for a short trip and den top up the balance… was kinda last min for us, plus we gotta tink of the “expecting mummy”, so…. food it shall be!

The lunch was at Goodwood Park – Thai Village Each of us had a bowl of (yummy) sharks fin.. didnt dare to capture pics (cos my big big boss was ard)… so this is taken from de webbie…dun drool hur hur… (“,)

The other dishes werent very impressive (for de price we the bank paid). Or perhaps my taste bud + stomach wasnt enjoying it very much.. =/

Few days back, had lunch @ Yhing Thai Palace – recommended by customer =) A lovely conversation we had over lunch and den teh tarik at Raffles Hotel. According to her, their teh tarik is pretty famous so…. yup, we landed ourselves there =p

If you fancy Thai food, do check out tat place ya. Seems like there’s quite a number of reviews on this eatery. Location’s pretty easy to find too, @ Purvis St #01-04.

Hope to bring my fam there to try one of these wkends- we love Thai food! *smiles*

The i-phone looks so preeeeeety!! (“,)

..pain

Tummy was having de constant pain again. Bearable, but very uncomfortable.. =(

So i cabbed home from PS after much hesistation.

There goes $20.60… ahhh *heartpain*

Cant seem to fall asleep now…… =/

On a sidenote, Money No Enough 2 is pretty good! Gotta prepare tissue tho, heh =p

Durian Indulgence

My stomach has been havin de bliss of yummy durian this few days.. very sinful, but so irresistible! Only durian lovers will understand i tink? heh. Its a …. love…. undescribable! woohh…

It started off with de new shop (717 Trading) opened near my place… on and off, Mum will buy all kinds of durian (puff, crepe, pie, cakes) back home. Today, she happen to pass by Emicakes so there’s durian stuff at home again! aww~~~~

Durian makes me happy (more so than chocolate). So, Monday blues are gone after de effects of durian… heh heh.. =p First love…. keke….the over-dose of durian must have made me too high….. (“,)

This tout jus when thru my mind:- one day, when i’m down with some serious sickness or on de verge of death… de food i’ll miss dearly most wld likely be durian!!

My foot was kiap-ed by the bus door earlier. *ouch*

Ramblings..

Another random post. Just got up from a long nap… time checked *2035* very wide awake, so here i am blogging. wonder if i’ll be able to sleep tonite? feeling under de weather…

wanted to visit the piano bookstore (i forgot de shop’s name!) today, but erh.. did not. is it de lack of motivation (dunno who i can play for too)? or just plain lazy? (so many excuse huh!)

sigh. last wk i was on 1-day medical leave and my boss didnt seem happy bout it… *double sigh* Recently, there were rumours spreading in de office.. tat there’s an affair between my boss & me! and i tink im de last to noe bout this rumour (@!#!!!)

Y: cos she’s a clubbing gal mah…

My colleague heard tat n tried to “clear” my name. Its up to de rest to believe which is de truth…..

*sian 1/2*

This was taken back when i was using de mini laptop when the Vaio was having some problem! Had much difficulty using de mini laptop cos of its size! The keyboard was a … challenge =/

The twins full month cel last Saturday! Cuuuuteeee~~~ look at them sleeping side by side! hehehe =p Was there early tgt with Gossip Partner 2. The pic on de right was taken in a rush (before leavin).. photo didnt capture full pic of Baby Charlene! *looks at photographer*

     

The dress for de 2 angels i didnt know buying baby clothes is sooooo tough! had sorta hard time before deciding to buy these! =/

Wad colour to get? same design got diff colour? wad size to get? is it too long? too short? buy 2 piece or 1 piece? whether de material of de dress will make de baby itch? *scratch head*

  

In de evening, join de Esplanade crowd and squeeze tgt to catch a glimpse of de NDP, lol~ headed for coffee thereafter while waiting for fireworks =p

Caught de fireworks @ Raffles City Tower! There were many groups of families (dressed in red n white) too. Bet they had a good party cos we saw (lots of) food and wine! lol. Kids were running bout and screaming when de fireworks was displayed! sth different for me this yr

     

Sunday, as usual was a spring-clean day. While cleaning n packing, took pics of these face & body wash/ lotion (i know damn bo liao, hee). =p

     

  

Yesterday, no shoppin plans, din wan to go town too. Supposedly going Sentosa, but a last min plan was change to visit …. de Airport..

Tout somewhere quiet will be good (to relax n de-stress).. surprisingly, de airport was pretty crowded (with many students studying)…. we took de skytrain for fun =p

     

     

Had dinner @ Phins, den cabbed home.. Why does wkend always pass so fast?

Till the end..

The lazy bug is hitting me. Photos turning “dusty” soon…. will upload when im not so lazy =p

I tink tonite, i’ll slp with this song playing repeatedly (in my dreams)! finally hav de song- thanks for finding de song (you-know-who-you-are)!!

Its always played during weddings.. one of de songs tat touches de heart & tearful…. im (so) in love with this song =p *smiles* i tink all gals will melt? heh. used to “visit” one of de blogs jus to listen to de song… sounds silly i noe… :/

pls email me if any of ya happen to hav de music scores! (thanks in advance!)

Till The End

All these precious moments
With you by my side
Must be a gift from heaven
That’s holding me all night
I don’t know how I found you
I’m thankful that I am
And I haven’t love so true
To hold to keep to share

In my heart , I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide
I’ll always be with you until the very end.
In this world , there is no place that I could be
You are my life, my soul , my girl.
And through it all,I know you come to see
That you ‘re the one till the end.

All my friends around me
See you be gone too soon
At the end ,I’m gonna make them see
We’ve found a way back home.

In my heart , I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide
I’ll always be with you until the very end.
In this world , there is no place that I could be
You are my life, my soul , my girl.
And through it all,I know you come to see
That you ‘re the one till the end.

Clean-Up

A fruitful Sunday spent at home cleaning & tidying up! =)

Earlier, amidst clearing de junk mails in my inbox… i saw all de emails sent by him (back from de start of our r/s, to de end) and.. hands itchy, wen to open and started reading them.. Perhaps it was a wrong move. Stubborn eyes became teary.. =/

Stared at de emails for a few sec, contemplating if i shld delete them all. In de end…

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I did not.

Every sunrise is a gift from God :)

Few wks back, i chanced upon 2 tearing-websites..

This was the blog of Clifton’s gf. He was in de news when de tragedy happen. Reading her entries, i am touched by de strong love she had for him.

True love do exist after all.

On another occasion, i read bout de departure of Jerlyn thru this link. Such a young, pretty gal.. whom her smile smittens everyone. A life lost thru a car accident..

It felt so depressing. The impact on their loved ones…

Then this morning, saw another saddening news (tat was on papers last Wed)..

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He dragged me in water and said: ‘Don’t let me go’

THEY had strolled on the beach at East Coast Park on romantic dates before.

But Monday night was different.

This time, Miss Dang Thi Tho, 25, ended up fighting for her life.

Her married lover, 35, had dragged her into the sea in a bid to kill her and himself.

The China national, who works in the renovation industry, had wanted her to move in with him but she had refused.

She wanted to get married but he felt the situation was hopeless because his wife in China wouldn’t agree to a divorce.

Speaking to The New Paper in Mandarin from her hospital bed yesterday, Miss Dang described how agitated he was as he dragged her into the water.

Identifying him only as Mr Yang, she said she tried to calm him down by reminding him of his two young children in China, but it didn’t work.

She said: ‘He hugged me tightly and kept saying, ‘Don’t let go. We must die together’.

‘I tried to push him away with my hands and I even bit him but he wouldn’t listen tome.’

He pushed her head underwater and she soon lost consciousness.

An eyewitness, a 32-year-old technician who gave his name as Mr Liu, told Lianhe Wanbao that everything happened very suddenly.

Those who were at the scene saw the couple quarrelling.

The man suddenly dragged the woman into the sea.

Bystanders were so shocked that they did not react at first.

Mr Liu said the couple vanished beneath the water within two minutes.

The woman then floated to the surface and was washed ashore by the waves. People at the scene jumped into the water and helped to rescue her.

According to the police, who were called around 10.30pm, a passer-by managed to pull Miss Dang to safety.

He performed cardiopulmonary resuscitation (CPR) on her and she was revived after coughing up some sea water.

But Mr Yang could not be found.

The Singapore Civil Defence Force and the police searched for eight hours, but to no avail.

Mr Yang’s body was eventually seen floating in the sea near the McDonald’s restaurant by some beach-goers, who called the police at around 8am yesterday..

The police are investigating the case as an unnatural death.

Miss Dang was taken to Singapore General Hospital, where her condition is stable.

Despite his attempt to kill her, she said: ‘I don’t hate him one bit.’

They met last October at a coffee shop, when Miss Dang was here on a holiday. As she had learnt Mandarin in Vietnam, they were able to get along well.

After they began their relationship, she visited Singapore repeatedly, to see him.

With her eyes red from crying, she said: ‘I was the first woman he ever loved. He didn’t love his wife. His father forced him to marry her.’

A week after they got to know each other, he had a pair of rings made with their names engraved on them.

They had the date 10 Oct 2007 on them, the day they met.

She was wearing this ring at the hospital yesterday, as she recalled how romantic Mr Yang was.

‘Once I was coming here from Vietnam, he waited at the airport for a few hours with a big bunch of red roses, my favourite flower,’ she said.

She said her boyfriend often quarrelled with his wife, who refused him a divorce and wanted him to return to China.

‘She insisted that he buy a house for her before she would agree to a divorce. But his income was only about $2,000, so he was put in a difficult position,’ said Miss Dang.

She said Mr Yang had asked her many times to live with him in his rented four-room flat and to bear him children.

‘But he had a wife and children in China. If I moved in with him and bore him children, I would have no status and security, so I rejected him,’ she said.

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Sigh sigh, life’s so short.. makes me wana treasure my loved ones even more =/

Here i am, reading de lost of lives.. and in a few hrs time, im gonna visit 2 new lives!

Yeap, the twins full month (6 days earlier tho)! Babies- de angels of life! =)