Smiles smiles..

This morning was quite a bit of scare :/

My vision blurred out of a sudden and i blackout in de bathroom.. when i gain back my vision, right side of my face was lying on de floor i had fallen face down… now bruised with a blue black on my knee and a cut on de gums, with one teeth bleeding *eeks*

and my right cheekbone hurts. it feels like a blue black but there’s no sign of blue black colour (lol).

I am getting de giddy spells/ vision blurring quite often recently. thankfully, today’s blackout happen at home (and not when im outside!). =/

hmm.

Met the Gossip Partners for coffee this aftnoon. It was great to see them tho it was just a short while ;p Every single complaint they made bout work.. they added emphasis on how much i was being missed (verbally & thru msg)! hehe..

So i jokingly replied over lunch:

“you only realise my importance after 1 year? so sad lor…!”

well well… their stand:

“If we miss you de moment you left de bank, it will be bcos of “xi guan”. We are soooo used to having u with us. Naturally we will not be used to not seeing you ….

But if after 1 yr, we still tink of you and longed for your presence, it means you are impt and truly missed by us!”

It took me quite awhile before i unds wad they meant… (oops). As we chatted, GP1 teared… and as if it was to reassure me, she mention again..

“we really miss you very much, if only you were still here”.

I could only describe tat i felt very touched. Being appreciated… is sth i really really yearn for, be it in terms of family/ work/ friendship/ relationship.

GP2 asked if i wld wan to return to de ex-office shld there be opportunity as there is a current vacancy..

oh well.

The decision to leave in Jan was indeed a hard one. Weighing de pros n cons was an even tougher job. Didnt had much time to bid goodbye due to de urgency of my current workplc.

The heart really wanted to stay on… de feelings (for the job + overall envt) was very strong. I didnt wan to leave.. but i guess i had to be more rationale at de end of de day. Job prospect was practically nil. Parting is part & parcel of life…. sth which is very.. unavoidable. Its basically a matter of time, i guess.

So, there’s no more turning back.

No doubt, i still missed de daily breakfast cum lunch and pantry sessions.. but tat can only exist as part of my memory with them. Back den, i was really happy. Even when i was over-piled with work, i still look fwd to de next day as there was sth i cld look fwd to everyday. We wld even stay late to accompany each other if need be. When i was overcoming de break-up obstacle, they were also thr, morally & physically.

Those good old days… -hard to be forgotten.

Life….

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