Family Day

The day we headed to ECP as a family…

French toast w/peanut butter & chocolate…. not forgetting fruits too, heh.

  

very glad to see Mum & Dad so happy… *smiles*

  

eveywhere we cycled.. we spot the marathon banner, hehe.

  

    

bought desserts from the hawker centre, den cycled back… look at de super melted ice kachang! =/ 

     

lunch was @ Oldtown Cafe. we skipped de idea of roller blading and decided to go for bowling thereafter =p

    

dear brother teaching Dad….

     

they were grinning away… didnt know Dad cld bowl well, it being his 1st try!

     

taking a break for some pics ;p

  

  

we decided to head home while parents & sis continued shopping.. only to realise… no KEYS! ahhh~

which explains these fotos…. suggested by dear bro! hehe ;p

  

a great time overall….

Ladies Nite

Its 3am.

gotta work tmr… so why am i here???

Bloated from all de alcohol…. i decided to not sleep yet…. its gonna be quite uncomfortable =/

As always, every wedding is special in its own way. And it touches de heart.. makes one teary ;p

I was made to tah by my boss during de entire wedding dinner. He likes to use his “authority” at such instances… and even “threaten” tat he can amend my appraisal score if i dun abide by the his rules…. how nice of him huh :/

red wine. white wine. and beer.

i tink i drank more than i ate! de tummy is feeling a tad awful now.. =(

We wen for 2nd round thereafter…. at St James. Ladies nite! Its been so long …. since i partied!

Hopefully, i wont be tat lazy to upload de fotos here, heh ;p

Gonna catch some rest now…. another 4 more hrs! =)

Wedding bliss..

December, besides it being a festive season… it is also a wedding season! Indeed, many weddings have been planned in Dec. Will be attending de wedding dinner of a close colleague tmr. We’ve been tokin bout it since de wedding prep started… and tadah, tmr is like finally his Big Day!

He is by far, de nicest gentlemen friend i have.. really taking care of all de small little details, like sheltering us from de scorching sun and pouring rain? Even if it means inconvenience to him..

Each time we buy back coffee/ food during occasional tea-breaks, he will insist on carrying it no matter how many times we say “its ok”….

The recent incident where i blacked out and was on medical leave… he dropped me a sms at 1am to ask if i was getting any better… in fact every time i was unwell, he wld sent a “get well soon” msg.

A small gesture, but really… “its de thought that counts”.

of cuz there’s stil many more gd points bout him.. heh ;p

Read this today, and it jus seems so “timely”… with all de wedding bliss ard de corner…

“Modern society is anti-love. We’ve taken a microscope to everyone to bring out their flaws and shortcomings. It far easier to find a reason not to love someone, than otherwise. Rejection requires only one reason. Love requires complete acceptance.

Loving someone has great benefits. There is admiration, learning, attraction and something which, for the want of a better word, we call happiness. In loving someone, we become inspired to better ourselves in every way. We learn the truth worthlessness of material things. We celebrate being human. Loving is good for the soul. 

Loving someone is therefore very important, and it is also important to choose the right person. Despite popular culture, love doesn’t happen by chance, at first sight, across a crowded dance floor. It grows slowly, sinking roots first before branching and blossoming. It is not a sill weed, but a mighty tree that weathers every storm. 

When you have someone to love, that the face is less important than the brain, and the body is less important than the heart.”

Night Owl

i got home on Sunday with a heavy bloated tummy. argg.

Then today (being a PH)… i slept throughout.. waking up near dinner time. heh. 

was i too tired? or perhaps de weather was simply too good? ;p

now, im so (wide) awake!

oh dear.

Mild D..

i am somewhat wanting to cry, and yet somewhat refraining.

de feeling is terrible.

on a good normal day, i will talk, laugh and joke as usual…

on a bad day, i wld feel like a complete failure. or useless… you cld call it.

detaching myself from de world, not talkin to anyone and not havin any interest in anythg. In short, i jus wanted to be left alone and perhaps, R & R (rot and reflect).

Many things going thru my mind, i reckon its de stress + (high) expectations + dependancy level tat has led to this mild depression. And when things dont go as plan/ organise/ not perfect… i get even more fidgety and it affects me (very much) at work.

sometimes, i dont even know myself.

like…. i remind myself tat i dont wanna be unhappy over certain trivial issue cos its not worth it etc etc… but de next moment, de other part of me has alr broken down and wen into ”depression” mode.. tears come unknowingly.

not tat i wan to… =/

sucidal thoughts come hand in hand. but its less frequent now..

with this situation lasting for.. close to a yr, and tat de yr is coming to an end… i wonder wad improvements hav i made? or have things got worse?

been trying to help myself.. with tat additional faith… i shld be able hope to pull thru.

time doesnt stops …

Lousy

i have been feeling very lousy.

very depressing. *cries*

everythg i do jus seem so wrong, so wrong.

all de negative vibes…. ahhh.

damn..

These 2 days, being on medical leave, was terrible. mentally torturing..

sigh!

Remember de recent post of good fren?

I met her 2 wks ago and all’s well again since tat was wad seemed to be (tat day)…

Supposed to meet her tmr for lunch near my workplc cos she took 1/2 day. I was perfectly fine with having lunch tgt, but i wasnt reali for de idea of eating at Astons..

i had jus eaten there recently.. :/

(plus its de sch hols now, so its gonna be very much crowded)

and what did i get as a reply?

“oh really?”  –> received on Monday

maybe its jus me, but i cant accept such sms-es from a (good) fren. is tat a question? or a (sarcastic) remark?

…

Then today, received another sms tat she cant make it for lunch as her leave was last min rejected. In tat same sms, it was a long msg of work complains, her boss, her unhappiness etc…

i wanted to lend a listening ear.

but on 2nd touts, i didnt.

Whenever de msgs are bout “complains” or “not happy with work/ r/s” or if help is required… de sms will always begin with

“gal…blah blah blah”.

Other than tat, de usual sms is always

“ehh…. blah blah blah”.

why de difference in standards?

It has happen so many times. i guess everyone has their own limits. and im reali getting tired (of all these). there’s nothin called frens forever (at least for me).

appreciation? none at all.

i decided to off my fone today and get ample rest mentally. de non-stop fone calls and smses are driving me… nuts =(

as if these arent enuf…. my mum jus asked me de same question twice, over a span of 1 min!

…

Today’s jus not my day! damn.