Redundant

This is prolly just another rant.

i hate how im feeling right now, and seriously, dun feel that i belong here at all. Thoughts of moving out is recurring again… perhaps just de spur of the moment. or rather, i hope.

With bro’s bday & parents anni cel next wkend, i was busy with the planning, contacting the various places etc. hoping to find a nicie envt. Much time was spent and the hassle to correspond with the various dept really got on my nerves sometimes. plus, time was running out. Was sourcing out for cakes as well. Since it was a double occasion, i wanted it to be sth different from the rest.

How nice. Today i was informed (by sis) that all plans will be cancelled. And that she had bought the cake today instead.

Great. how easy it is to say it…. i wasted my (bloody) time! Been sometime since i was (so, so) angry! kinda weird that everytime im feeling pissed, i feel like crying! arggg.

Seriously, i wanted to scream at someone. i was in the midst of an exam when i got her sms, and it was really…. untolerable. Anyway, de whole thg  jus freaking pissed me off, i cancelled all my reservations and orders etc. Forget it. Sth which i was lookin fwd to has now turn into (ultra) disappointment.

Feeling so fed up, i headed for a drink with the guys at nite.

Thereafter, got home…

… best… they have celebrated already!

so, how impt does that make me? after all, im redundant…. whats the point of me staying here???? @#!@!!!