综于哭出来。

希望今晚会结束一切。

我，

很累了。

很累了。

Nuaing at ecp now. Doing nothing.. just having some me-time while i wait for the boy.

My brother, tat is. By far, the one who’s almost alw there for me esp during bad times.

We had a little chat on r/s earlier at Mac.. an enriching one. Altho he’s younger… wen it comes to r/s, he seems to be the more matured one. Oh well.

Blog via iphone.

因为爱太痛了

被爱情伤了又伤

真是。。傻瓜

The office is also another place where i seek peace. During the weekends, that is. The quietness is so enjoyable.. the peace i get is indescribable.

i can think better, write better (and clear my stuff faster! lol) perhaps tats the reason why ive been going back almost every week (willingly).

Enjoy the Sunday bliss… not everyone has their Sunday free yea?

Hope u like this song as much as i do too

Till then..

On a sidenote, its been 1 mth since i drank! Finally, committed myself to not drink as often as before.. *smile*

P.S Not much of pics now.. all’s in FB! ;p

the “liveliness” in you has disappeared!

As i re-read the previous blog where our memories were jotted down.. i realised how much… ive changed.

in short- fatter and older! lol.

No more “happy” smiles.

Indeed, when you’re in love… you’ll unknowingly emit a “blissful” aura!

It was a spur of de moment tat i decided to look back at the old entries.. and, as de saying goes… time flies! Its been 2 years :X It was good loking back tho..

i wonder how’s he doing now..

Everytime i wanna write.. i stare blankly. and soon, i tear. Afterwhich i decided to “pause-blog” for the time being.

Life is getting.. meaningless.

no purpose.. no direction.. very lost.

forgotten. unappreciated. overlooked. taken for granted.

Life is meant to be lived with as little regrets as possible?

i tink i have lived enough.

very tired.

literally. mentally.

no one remembers anw.

have i been a blessing to anyone?

no.

sadly, the truth hurts.

i am tired… to de extent of giving up everythg.

if only i can sleep… …. forever! :X

dun belong here.

i hate how im feeling right now, and seriously, dun feel that i belong here at all. Thoughts of moving out is recurring again… perhaps just de spur of the moment. or rather, i hope.

With bro’s bday & parents anni cel next wkend, i was busy with the planning, contacting the various places etc. hoping to find a nicie envt. Much time was spent and the hassle to correspond with the various dept really got on my nerves sometimes. plus, time was running out. Was sourcing out for cakes as well. Since it was a double occasion, i wanted it to be sth different from the rest.

How nice. Today i was informed (by sis) that all plans will be cancelled. And that she had bought the cake today instead.

Great. how easy it is to say it…. i wasted my (bloody) time! Been sometime since i was (so, so) angry! kinda weird that everytime im feeling pissed, i feel like crying! arggg.

Seriously, i wanted to scream at someone. i was in the midst of an exam when i got her sms, and it was really…. untolerable. Anyway, de whole thg  jus freaking pissed me off, i cancelled all my reservations and orders etc. Forget it. Sth which i was lookin fwd to has now turn into (ultra) disappointment.

Feeling so fed up, i headed for a drink with the guys at nite.

Thereafter, got home…

… best… they have celebrated already!

so, how impt does that make me? after all, im redundant…. whats the point of me staying here???? @#!@!!!

Its been a pretty bad day. So… Need to vent my frustration by singing lor.. Or is it screaming? Ah ha..

Have a great wkend!

Blogged from iphone.

i have no idea how often i will write again, looking at how much work has taken over my time…. by de time i get home, my dinner is in fact supper…. and thereafter, its almost midnite and i need my bed badly to chiong de next day lor! lol…

dun dare to make any more appts after work now. wkends are also dedicated to work. i wish i can choose not to. cos.. ive no social life now!! *cries* what to do? responsibility at work. if i fail to deliver, i have to answer. plus with the not-so-fantastic economy, all de more i gotta treasure my job? perhaps.. really fated ming ku ba? Ox ma… hard life rite? haha.

this lifestyle’s also detrimental to my health. haven been sleeping and eating well. either i eat very early which is my first and last meal for the day.. or i eat very late and end up with a bloated tummy. becoming hippo-potamus liao lor..

talkin bout social life.. have been asked many times again if im seeing anyone. *aiyoh* My boss has also recently showed “more concern”, haha. He even offered to matchmake, claiming that he dun wan to be as if he’s making me stay and work so late till i cant have dinner dates! then next time, i’ll blame him liao… HAHA.

well well well.

some things just cant be forced. i can only be envious? our lives are all planned differently? nice to see couples get tgt…. move on to marriage… den begin a family of their own… i believe this is almost everyone’s wish. to have a life partner.

perhaps its not time yet. perhaps there’s jus simply “no one”. perhaps its jus all a dream. perhaps im meant to be left on de shelf to begin with.

perhaps perhaps perhaps.

ok lah, if ever a matchmake is arranged, i tink i will definitely hav sth to blog bout.

i have also “equipped” myself with an iphone, hehe. bo bian… gotta try someway to keep myself updated lor. at least can stay connected online with an iphone lor? haha…. ok that sounds like an excuse.

this wkend’s burnt again. but with iphone… i can multitask…. keke.